sexual beings, dear.

bleh;

sexuality-
aren't we confused as human beings.

we've got;
heterosexuality.
homosexuality.
asexuality.
bisexuality.
monosexuality.
pansexuality.
zoosexuality.

gah, i'm sure they're are more than that. it's like we keep on making up new "sexualities" for every little thing that we feel lust or any emotion for. eh.

why can't we all just be known as "sexual beings". does it not seem just so much easier that way. why does our sexuality have to define us-
if your a zoosexual, then your a freak, so to speak.
if your a homosexual, and you have a penis then you must know fashion and if you have a vagina then your a dike.
if your a pansexual, ah then that must mean that your just into the physical features of another be either sex.

as beings we are already fucked out of our minds.. why must we be so judgmental, so stupid, so destructive. even when it seems we are doing well, we do something that can be changed and judged into some "poorly" made decision.

we surely are a fucked being.

who cares what sexuality you are why can't we all just be sexual beings live, eat, experience, fuck. why must we make up a word for everything that we are. why can't we just be.

i surely can't be the only one that thinks this way. why do we have to define ourselves by our sexuality. why can't we just life, why bother using poorly made words to define our every second.

• just live life.
• fuck whatever it is you please.
• say what's on your mind, at the discression of no one.
• hell, roll some green.
• drink til' you don't remember what it is your drinking.
• explore not only yourself but, others as well.
• question authority, as many before me have said.
• quit defining yourself as a certain sexuality- if you must say you are a sexual being whom happens to want to experience new things.
• push the limits.
• push yourself, even if it seems impossible.
• quit living in a box, make house in a circle.
• cuss like a sailor, if you must.
• experience your nympho-like qualities.
• get help if you need.
• do as so.

[:

Sperm Doner.

Dad.

Ha, I'm not sure if I should even call you that.
Makes me laugh to know that I once actually liked you. [:


I'm glad you did what you did.
I'm happier than I have ever been because, I myself learned how much of a dead beat "father" you are. You pay eleven dollars a week for child support for one child. That's pitaful. Shows how much you care.
Everything you touch you ruin, your face is now etched out of my memories.

I want you to know; I don't need you, nor did I ever need you. You can be a sexist pig to everyone else, including your "maid," you should know by now.. I'm in some sort your daughter but, I won't admit to that if someone ask. You can't control me like you have to your wives. I can make it without you, better yet I can make it in life without a Man in my life.

Whenever I have kids, if I was to tattoo their names on my body- I would make sure the child is actually mine. Really smart move, jackass.



You want to know how I'm doing? Since obviously you ask everyone else, how about I tell you.
Since leaving you in the past, I've never been happier. My stress levels are "normal," I'm not worried about what you think about me anymore because, God knows, I don't give a hell what you think of me. You might as well forget about me. When someone asks asks about how many kids you have, you tell them that you have six kids, not seven. Actually, you don't conclude Justin as your own either. You don't deserve him.


I hope when the girls grow older they realize how much of a sexist pig, and true jackass you really are. This is the last time I will even notice you in my family, after I'm finished writting this, I'm NOT allowing you to be part of my life, EVER AGAIN. Just figured I would let you know.
By the way, Quit asking my mom about me. It's none of your damned business. If you want to know something, forget about it. I'm sure your too busy filling for Bankrupcy, so that you don't even have to pay the childsupport of eleven dollars a week. Ha. Your such a jerk.



Don't try to pry. Don't try to be part of my life. Don't bother having any pictures of me. Don't try to say your sorry. Don't try to say you've changed. Don't pretend your not a sexist asshole. Don't say you love your children, equally. Don't ever try to change someone into someone they are clearly not. Don't be so abusive. Don't try to talk to me. Don't remember me as your first and oldest child. Don't think about the things in my past, or my future. Don't try to be nice to Justin, when you don't even know him. Don't be so damned controlling. Don't try to attend my wedding, when/if I get married. Don't try to be a part of my future children's lifes. Don't talk to my mom, like she's any less than an amazing person, despite the mistakes she has made. Don't forget that your not anything less than a small piece of dirt. Don't think my opinion of you, will Ever change. Don't think that I can't turn my back on you. Don't think that I claim you as my father, from now on your the Sperm Doner- That's it. Don't think that I'm holding a grudge, because I'm not. Don't be so sure about your opinions of me, I'm always changing and always growing into a better person, unlike yourself. Don't think that I like you, I have to love you but, I don't and won't like you. And. Don't think that I want you in any part of my life.. You messed up for the last time.



Bye. [: